
Irrational fears
One of my biggest fears as a person who was never tested for ADHD is to go to the specialist and be told I actually don't have it. Like the realisation itself that the perception of all my experiences was a lie I told to myself by myself. Not knowing who I am and what is wrong with me. And the embarrassment of me being not fitting even for ADHD. Just being different from the normal society but not different enough to be considered neurodivergent. Maybe it's one of the reasons I still haven't gone to get tested. At least now I can assume stuff about myself if it feels right just because It feels right Sorry if it sounds stupid or I am misinformed in any aspect of what I wrote, it's just me being in the exploration stage of my life
