I just feel like I lost my soul (_ _).｡o○

I’m so sorry to hear that . I understand that and have been through the same. But what helped me is I met Christ. My life was in shambles and I was considering a not so good alternative, and He saved me and has truly changed my life. Jesus loves you so much that He died and rose again for you. He can truly heal depression, anxiety, and even suicidal thoughts. He did for me. Don’t hold back any of your emotions from God. Your worth is not in your grades or performance. Your worth is in that you were created in the image of God, fearfully and wonderfully made. You are not a mistake. God has a plan for you even if you do not see it or believe it

I feel like that too, plus I have an IQ of 145 so I pressure myself even more to be better than others because I kinda have to be, I‘m smarter so I have to score better right? What always helps me are friends and music (I listen to metal because it’s the only music that stimulates my brain enough and on top it’s just great) to get that feeling. Books and audiobooks are also great. All in all just do things you love with people you love and for the knowledge thing, there are plenty of information in the internet (just make sure they are from trusted sources), that’s where I got most of my knowledge from

I really hope you get through this problem. Just realise there’s a lot of other students who are struggling and you’re not alone , you’ve got people on this app that are supporting you . If you want you can join my team in my profile , I’m a student as well with adhd and I have my major exams soon as well and I’m trying also to get top grades - no pressure though .

Maybe try body doubling with your mother (who sounds like she has adhd) to make your appointment with the psychiatrist. Work with them on the proper dosage and get therapy to address your feelings and develop strategies for coping.

I literally feel like reading my own thoughts I totally agree, i was treated for anxiety, depression, sleep disorder And not until couple of months back ( 26yrs old already ) i was actually diagnosed with ADHD I use to gaslight myself into thinking no the symptoms feel relatable to everyone you are just lazy stupid or smh AND would actively avoid learning about adhd And now i read about it … everything makes sense Since childhood Studied and scored well by preparing last minute Can’t make a decision even if my life depends on it Chooses known path cuz we scared of what happens on the other side Over explaining to ppl and always takes it on me to fix someone’s mood because i am responsible But treat me with low respect I can keep going 🥲